starlite i'm so sorry for your loss. it seems like all of the hurts you and your sisters endured is brought out at this time... and all of the closeness to each other. it reminds me of my brother and i...who died earlier this year. we had periods off and on of being very close and other times of hardly seeing each other...but the strong bond was always there with us. sometimes it makes me so angry we only had the last few years to be reaquainted.and sometimes it makes me so grateful we had those few years. he knew i loved him...and that means the world to me. take care of yourself....kasva