It's been a quite few days. I'm very gloomy in the past 5 days. I finally go out by myself just to kill times, grab some drinks, but it turns out I'm only out for 2 hours, I don't have enough energy. I'm too depressed. What is it about me, really, sometimes I'm just confused about myself. I got all the time in the world to do something useful but I didn't do that, what I do is sleep watching tv and this. I'm in need to talk to someone, either on the phone or face to face. Someone that can understand me & accept me for who and what I am. I just couldn't find the right person at the moment. I miss her, someone that I met a few days ago, weird feeling. I miss my drug-use problem, what the hell am I thinking. I don't know, I'm pretty messed up right know. I just wish I have someone beside me. I'm trying to keep my head straight, let's just hope I can get through it.