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Dec 11, 2009, 11:36 AM
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I don't have a career, boyfriend or husband, no friends I hang out with, not much money either- I'm a mess and just a waste of space and I'm to depressed and empty to do anything about it- to many problems.
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Originally Posted by Berries
I have been sick (mentally ill) and in and out of hospitals for 25 years—since I was 17.
I’ve never had anywhere near a “normal” life. No career, no spouse, no healthy relationships, very, very little friends, no kids, very little money earned (from sporadic part-time jobs), been on disability since I was 18.
Anyway, what I want to say is that I had a nightmare that I was contemplating all of this and I felt such sorrow and loss that I began to sob, to wail uncontrollably. And then I started choking. I woke up sobbing and gasping for air.
The reason I am posting this, is because I was wondering if anyone can relate to the grief and loss of being mentally ill and missing out on such fundamental life experiences.
I feel sad that I have missed out on so much and feel sad when I realize that I never will have those things.
I don’t mean to moan – “Woe is me” I just want to know that I am not alone.
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