My pushing people away was one of the reasons (out of many, which I have to remind myself of constantly or I feel way more guilt than I should) my first marriage went down the tubes. My pushing people away with my current marriage is the main reason why I finally sought help and got diagnosed. I'm not sure how I got so lucky, but even when I was trying to get him to go away, I knew that he loved me, and I always feel safe with him. I knew that I could push, and I knew that he wouldn't leave.

With my friends, it's a little different. I don't have that many close friends. The ones that have stuck around are the ones who wouldn't go very far when I pushed them away. They would give me my space, but they would still let me know they cared. I think you are doing the right thing by giving him his space and yet still checking in with him to see how he's doing.

I hope things work out for you.