Dear Marjan,
Thank you for coming to my rescue. I have no one to talk to. I dont tell my family about what he's done only because I always try to protect him and make sure they dont hate him. But today, I broke down and I had to tell my 19 year old daughter and my mother. As you can imagine, they were in shocked.

I know in my heart what I need to do and that is to end this once and for all and hopefully one day be able to see the sun again behind these dark clouds. I know I have to end this, I just need to find my strenght...I just dont know where it is...but I have to find it somewhere...

I cant believe I am so weak.
Thank you sooo much