I'm not sure where my first reply went. I'm new to chat rooms, so may have done this wrong. I'm in my 50s and believe I've been bipolar all my life, though I'm only now recognizing it. I've been treated for depression and sleep problems for five years, brought on by a disasterous major move and job failure. I travel a lot for work and am at my worst when jetlagged: easily overwhelmed, reactive, depressed. It always passes, but doesn't feel like it will when I'm in the middle of it. I blew up at a friend in such a state yesterday. Not the first time, and I don't know that I'll be forgiven this time, but I decided to start reaching out for help on how to improve my behavior.