Oh, Tree!!!
To me this is just AMAZING, AMAZING progress!!! I don't write much to your posts because you are going through some crazy deep stuff that I really can't relate to. BUT, I read every single word you write. Your courage is astounding. Your strength. Your willingness to reach out even if it frightens you. Do you realize how STRONG that is?
It doesn't feel strong, I know...but I am practically grinning here thinking about how you are telling all these people. I HOPE that they DO get mad for you! They should! If I had anyone close to me in my life disclose anything related to CSA, I would want rage. Rage at the unfairness placed upon my loved one. Rage at the person(s) that did this to them. Rage at the loss of innocence. Rage that these things even happen. TO ANYONE.
Just keep reaching out. You obviously trust your husband and your friend to know they will not revolt in disgust. I am assuming they didn't.
Please stay here and be the supportee for once. You said yourself that you take on too much with other people's problems. I love to help support as well...and it also helps to take your mind off your problems, which can be beneficial--IF you don't stretch yourself too thin.
Follow your gut. It is doing the right thing. I am so happy and proud of you, and I don't 'even know you!
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