my anxiety is out of control right now!
it is 2:30 am here, i have work tomorrow, and my mind is racing.
my stomach has been hurting and i'm convinced that it's something "serious" (which it never is... part of my OCD is a complete fear that horrible things will happen to my body, getting sick, etc.)
right now i'm afraid of dying in my sleep. even though i'm a relatively healthy 20 year old...
i just can't. handle. this. much. anxiety. i'm worried i'm going to have another stress-seizure, which is the last thing i need right now.
i'm sorry if this post seems whiney and self-indulgent, but i feel like i'm peeling off the mask of normalcy i parade to those around me. while internally i feel like screaming. ack.