This is long but I figure the more details I give to explain the different..parts..of this then maybe someone can help me make sense out of this and figure out if I really had nothing with this guy or its the bipolar/drug addictions or what. I'm just..confused.

Back in October, I had met a guy in really random way. It's not like either of us were out looking for a date. I picked up something he dropped, then he dropped something else, we laughed, joked, talked..clicked instantly. He wrote down his number but wasn't leaving so I invited him to come with me and get a coffee...This lasted hours! We clicked that well. So well that we ended up hanging out for over 2 days straight; I had some errands to run and he insisted on tagging along.

Then it was getting late and he told me he never had that much fun with someone new just doing what we did. I agreed and we were both like "what next, everything is closing" so we caught a bus to the casino. Time flew there. We missed the bus back because some machine kept giving me money and he got into something on TV... Later, (next day now) I swiped my player's card and won a free night in the hotel.. and since we were both falling asleep..we went with it. Figures right? Needless to say a hotel room on the 2nd night together was awkward. We walked outside to the hotel..in the rain. He got soaked and when he took his shirt off I um kinda looked which he saw and thought he could get laid. He tried a few times, threw out some lame lines, made out a little then I kept pushing him away and telling him I didn't want to..Finally it sunk in and he felt like a jerk and apologized. So we actually slept and nothing happened. In the morning he apologized again. Then later he tried again. Then I guess by my reaction he assumed I had been raped or something which isn't true but I didn't tell him that..and said there was something building here and he'd wait. I apologized too because I guess did give mixed signals. So everything was FINE again, went and got food and caught a bus back. I have to admit I saw a few moodswng type things during these 2 days..but nothing aimed at me.

Next day it changes when we finally went our separate ways. He collects SSDI for bipolar. Forgot how this subject came up but also made a comment about hoping I never see "that side" of him..Random. He also had already told me he smokes pot "sometimes" and I didn't think it was a big deal. He went and got his check and to go buy pot and we planned to meet that evening but never showed up. Called later and he said he "started tripping"...Whatever. I said he could've at least told me instead of blowing me off. So again, everything was fine. The way he acted with the money/drugs thing was the first clue there was a problem there. Definitely an addict..talking really fast etc. Mood swings and voice changes.

I saw him twice after that... he was all horndog on me and got pissy when I just said it was too fast for me. Once he obviously had a few drinks and it wore off as he sobered up. Second time was WORSE and he actually got scary on me and I left....difference was he had drank AND was high. First thing in the morning he calls and apologizes (pattern) for being an *** and said we became instant good friends and he didn't want to ruin that. K..great.

A couple weeks later we hung out for a couple hours and it was great, he was "normal" and back to the original guy I met again. Apparently he was straight because something was going on he had to be straight for... Don't really know the story there, know pieces of it..he kind of got weird again saying something about might having to leave town and he'd promise to call me and let me know he was alright. And he did and everything was fine. But the staying straight didn't last long.

Haven't seen him since. He never called first since neither of us really talked on the phone and I'm the one who works and he figured if I can do something I'd call otherwise its pointless. He doesn't get texts or voice mail..(know for fact, not a lie) and rarely calls me back..although he used to.

Now..past 2 weeks or so.. The few times I get him on the phone, he just asks when I'm going to give it up and makes comments like "I waited weeks". He mumbles, voice is weird..sounds high/tired/out of it now. In general he sucks on the phone.never seems to hear on it or get what you're saying. It'd be easier to talk to him in person but apparently I'll probably never get that chance again. Last time he was like "lets get it on and then we can go do something".. I tried asking if thats all he wants and he quickly says "no" yet its all he's said the past few times I tried to call and see if he wanted to go do something.

Everyone who knows the basics of this situation just thinks I'm getting blown off for not having sex. But really, he was not a horndog in the beginning. I can read people well..I can tell when I'm being played and gawked at..I'm usually not naive. I don't have a long history of bad relationships. This guy wasn't like one of those guys at all and I don't think it was an act or fake. It's like what he is now saying doesn't match his actions those few times he was straight. People wonder why I'm still stuck on him and it's because I originally saw the good side of him. I don't think I can "save" or "change" the guy..I'm not one of those types of women. I wasn't playing hard to get.. Heck, other than those first 3 days I only saw him once straight since!
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I just really don't understand how it turned into this.

Great few hours.. talk to him that night and he said he missed me, kept reassuring me he was "alright" and will call me the next day so I wouldn't worry..And since then nothing but asking for sex which were 45 second phone calls...Like.. OK?

Is it the bipolar and pushing me away thing? Depressive/low part of bipolar? Any hope he'll snap out of this in a few weeks or a month and call me again and be back to himself? At first I kept calling once a week or 2 weeks, or days in between just to show I am STILL interested because I was afraid if I stopped calling, he'd never call again. But now.. I don't want to call anymore anyway since the last 3 conversations were the same and didn't make me feel good. I'm an idiot if I call again. I just feel he's still in there..somewhere. I considered just purposly finding a way to accidentally run into him..just cause I think this would make more sense if I could actually talk to him face to face but I don't want to be needy and desperate either. I'm far from clingy. I just want closure or sense I guess. I know there are guys out there that don't treat women like this...but I had more in common and clicked better with this guy than I have with those other guys.