im sitting here crying trying to talk to my brother who ive hardly spoken to in about 2 years and havent seen him since then either, i told him how i feel atm how i feel like i have no family an like noone cares i dont know what it is but tonight im finding it really REALLY hard. he told me im his lil sis an of course he cares and says i need to sort my **** out... i told him im trying an doing the best i can but he doesnt understand, he doesnt know how hard it is.. do they really think i want to be like this?? crying, self harming hating myself soo much i want to die??
im trying my hardest but its like its not good enough, nothings good enough....
i dont even know how i got into this state tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM OVA IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!