I don't know what it is about the Christmas season that makes me sad. Possibly because I can't bring back those indescribably wonderful Christmas's of childhood, can't bring my dear mother back into the world and can't bring back a good relationship with my brother. Also, my Dad is 86, and I'm already to stove up to keep up with him, which falls far short of his expectations. 3vel, I'm so sorry that your moods are swinging up and down. I'm glad that you are able to get into the season somewhat, and that you can "wind yourself up to go Christmas shopping. That says much for your abilities to fight this thing we can depression. Sometimes there's just no reason for it. It's just there like a little monster in the head, saying negative things. We don't have to listen, but sometimes we do. Hugs and Blessings that the one party you didn't enjoy won't be a hallmark of the season for you! A friend in an uncertain season. billieJ