Oh teary! I'm so sorry that you feel not even your family understands...actually sometimes they are the last to understand, if they ever do. I know it isn't the same, but please know you are not alone, we are here, there are so many of us here who have just sat and cried and felt so alone, so while we may not know exactly what you have been through or how you are feeling, we are with you and I know it hurts and you just want to feel better and want someone to understand and know you don't want to be "like this". You are a wonderful and caring person and I do hope that you know I care.