((((((((((((((((teary_me)))))))))))))))) ~ I certainly do know the feeling. I have only one father and one brother left, and neither of them understand the wretchedness of depression. They do not understand why getting up and participating in life to the fullest is so difficult. My brother has about given up on me, considering me, I think, his "crazy" sister. Please don't be so hard on yourself. Try to accept the fact that if our conditions had symtoms that would show, like a 20-lb goiter or something, it would not be so difficult to us to get some empathy, but where symptoms are inside, they cannot be them, and, to them, it is somewhat like believing in the tooth fairy, or, in my case, laziness and a proclivity to complain. We here at PC understand very well, as, no matter what other conditions we may have, there is usually some depression in there as well - sometimes a lot. Consider me a friend in support and empathy - billieJ