I've taken a few different eating disorder questionnaires, and each has said that I very likely have an eating disorder. While I'll confess to a HISTORY of eating disorders (I've been anorexic/bulimic for real), I don't see that as being a problem for me right now.

Sure, I think about my weight a lot, and I always feel like I could stand to lose some weight, but I don't often feel like I am 'grotesque.' Most of the time, I think I'm pretty good at accepting me for where I am. I don't obsess about what I am GOING to eat, but I do worry while eating and feel guilty if I feel over-full or think I've eaten too much. Although I do tend to skip meals, it has been a couple years since I have "purged."

To me, it isn't that big a deal because I've experienced the "dark side," and this (in my opinion) is no where near it. However, when therapists ask about it, and when I fill out these questionnaires, the replies are shocking to me. Intensive treatment program? Seriously? I'd understand if I was underweight and still felt the way I do, but at a BMI of nearly 25, it seems like overkill. I *believe* I'm pretty normal.

But then again, I worry that I'm delusional. What if my perception of "normal" is really screwed-up? Maybe I really do need help, and maybe the fact that I'd prefer to lose another 15-20 lbs before formally seeking help is strong evidence of a problem.

I don't know. I don't think I obsess about food, and I don't think I'm being extreme in my methods (most of the time). I'm afraid to bring it up with the current therapist because I feel like there are more urgent things we need to talk about while I prepare to go back to school in a few weeks.

I didn't really think it was much of a problem, but the results of these questionnaires are kinda freaking me out. I'm not sure what to do (if anything). Thoughts?