Oh, Kaika, I feel so awful about your situation...

Give the other T a try...but keep the door open with your current T, in case things don't work out, so that you have support in the meantime while you find what works best for you.

I am sorry that your parents have been canceling your appointments. Have you talked to them about it?

You're dealing with very difficult issues....When my CSA stuff came out briefly in therapy several months ago, I went through a horrible time with panic attacks, flashbacks, body memories, etc....and ultimately suppressed it all again because I had so much else going on in the immediate, so I wasn't up to addressing it.

Now, I'm just afraid to....because I don't want to feel all those things again. So, I can imagine how upset you must feel to be going through this and facing working with a new T.

(( HUGS ))