This thread is just awesome! LOL !!!

I admit to searching for T on line - but that is how I found him! He has a webpage. And I wanted to make sure my T was someone who used the internet a bit because I wanted to have access to email T if I needed to do so. Thankfully, he is awesome and does let me talk in email and will support me if it is critical - which he is great at being able to figure out! Trauma work sucks!

Anyway, I did find him on facebook and made the mistake of sending a friend request. I did not think anything about it at the time outside of WAY COOL! He accepted and that shocked me. I got on and was looking at his pictures and thinking how he was a normal guy with a normal family - which was awesome. Then he sent me an email unfriending me because it was not "safe" for me - which duh - he was right but I didn't think of that.

In his defense, I only use part of my real name due to the ex husband abuse issue! He thought I was a classmate from his HS years. :-)

So that kinda hurt for a few hours. I solved that with a nice half dozen shots of whiskey. LOL ! But I knew he was right. But I did copy a couple of pictures over to my PC of his face before the unfriending occured. And I will use them to ground when I am going through the hard parts. It is comforting to just be able to pull us his face and see his eyes and know for a fact that at least one human in this world really knows what pain I am in. Even if I am having to pay him to know it - well it is still one person which is way more than the ZERO persons who knew!