I understand the pain you feel b/c my family is the exact same way. My older sister has always belittled me b/c she was jealous, & I was too nice to put her in her place. Believe me, I do now, which doesn't make me any more popular, but seeing the way she is, I don't want anything to do with her. The rest of my family just ignores me- I'm lucky if I get a phone call on my birthday. I have always been the black sheep of this family, so that they can all conveniently project their own sicknesses onto me & try to deny to themselves & the world that each one of them has some kind of mental illness. Even if one of them appears to be "perfect", it's only b/c he's hiding behind his narcissistic PD. This has been the most painful thing out of everything I've been thru in my life, b/c if my own family is so horrible to me, how can I trust anyone? And despite the fact that I know they are all messed up themselves, I still can't shake my belief that I'm unloveable. Be kind to yourself. Don't perpetuate the dysfunction of your family. If you feel like no one loves you, you have to LOVE YOURSELF. That's really hard to do- trust me, I know. I am trying so hard to just get out of bed every day. But I'm hoping that if I am loving towards myself, then I won't hurt anymore & I'll attract others who will love me. I made a decision this year, after going back & forth for a million years- every time they threw me a bone, only to get rejected again- that I am done with my family & I won't see them, anymore. You can't choose the family you're born into, but you can choose to get out. Good luck!