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I wonder how much more effort it is going to take, on my part, to get better. Is that how you overcome depression? Through effort, treatment, and support? I have no clue at this point, and it's hard to think about the future anymore, even though I am still young, and the future could be full of so many possiblities, and so bright. I sometimes feel uncapable of living on my own. Of making a living for myself. I wonder how long this will go on for.
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Oh boy, I think you and I are the same boat here. Unfortunately we live in a rather narrow society where, despite the adage that everyone is different, a certain mold of person is always demanded.
To you and I, that sea of opportunity in which the future is described seems to have evaporated into a mere puddle of water under the afternoon scorch of depression. Perhaps it is, say, also a far off oasis in the vast desert. Here we spend our strength searching for that very oasis, that very future, wandering aimlessly and slowly feeling more and more drained under the beat of depression's rays.
I read an interesting quote from one the signatures of a user here (don't remember who). It basically said, "Having low self-esteem is like driving through life with your handbrake on."
Easily, low self-esteem can be exchanged for depression, OCD, Bi-polar, or any of the likes. Sometimes it's enough to simply be aware of the problem and let go of the handbrake. Though other times it gets much deeper then that, gotta call in the mechanic...
Speaking of mechanics/psychologists, how's your current care provider? Sometimes it might be a good idea to switch to another care provider if your current one isn't doing you much good.
Best of luck,
~Monsieur
