I thought Id post again in my own thread....once again I had to apologize to my 5 yo. I did not handle the getting into the bath thing as well as I could have. I feel out of control. I was able to catch my breath and stop, apologize and then get enraged again. I dont want to do this! I dont want to do this! I am getting angry at myself for getting angry.

Iin the end, I lied down on the floor with her and I said, "Lets forget the bath, we'll do your nails with my special nail polish and then later we'll take a bath." She got up and we did her nails (she likes doinf stuff like this together).

I know I can do better than rage and out of control. I feel fine one minute, but I can fly out of control when Im triggered. I didnt expect this and I am so disappointed in myself that I cant control it.