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Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions
As an aside, the other day, I was taking a turn....and a huge truck was turning towards me extremely quickly...and it seemed as though I was going to be in a severe accident. I saw the truck coming head-on...and all I felt was intense RAGE....thinking to myself, "GO AHEAD, HIT ME! I DARE YOU!!!"
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Sometimes suddenly taking risks can be an example of para-suicidal behaviour and should be taken seriously. For instance, the above mentioned reaction to the truck - IMO it is not a rational response to feel rage when faced with a head on collision, rather fear would have been a more appropriate reaction.
I am by no means saying that you are suicidal or anything like that. You may in fact simply be fed up with constantly being afraid - something I totally understand. However, I would encourage you to discuss these new behaviours with your therapist to help determine whether you are, in fact, fed up or there is another process in play here.