((((((((((((((((lily))))))))))))))))))

Lately, when I have been wanting T, I've been asking myself what it is that I get from T that I am missing, and I try to see if I can find that in my life somewhere.

If it's some quiet time to be with myself, I might try to find a place to be alone and read a spiritual book. If it's someone to listen and hear me, I might post here. If it's connection, I might call a friend or hang out with H.

If none of that works, sometimes I will write an e-mail to T that I don't send. Or an e-mail that I DO send (I don't know if your T allows e-mails)...

None of those are "perfect" solutions, but sometimes it's good enough to help me get through.

Missing T is painful. to you...