Just wanted to say that I totally relate to this. My T was forced to bring up BPD with me about a year ago, because I asked if he thought I had a number of other PDs. He said no but was "putting off a diagnosis of BPD". So I went away and did some reading on BPD, and everything fits.

I think he has regretted even bring BPD up. I have asked him a couple of times over the past year about whether he is going to diagnose me, and every time he evades the question and wont answer directly. I did the sanity test here and printed out and took it into T. I scored 96 on borderline traits, and highly on a number of others. We talked about everything but the borderline traits.

I will push him on diagnosing me one way or the other- I feel I need a dx so that I know where/what I am. Maybe he knows this and thats why he wont dx, but for me I need to know I fit in somewhere, and am "something". I feel in limbo, I dont know who I am, where I am or what I here for. A dx is really important to me