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I have major issues with my husband's statement because we have worked really hard in the last year to come back from the verge of divorce. In that year, we found out about my diagnosis and have gone into therapy together. I blame a lot on myself because I had an illness and never knew it. I could have gone for help earlier and maybe we wouldn't have been on the brink.

He said recently that if we got divorced that he would fight for custody of the kids because of my illness.

If I had cancer and went off my chemo, he would stay until the end because it's the "right" thing to do. In the case of mental illness, he would leave me and take my kids because of the stigma. And everyone in our life would say he did the "right" thing.

Also, I tend to rebel against threats and come up with my own threats. I didn't vocalize these, but I thought last night of putting on several layers of clothing so that I would be warm enough, and just leaving.

I also had the thought, "You want me to take my meds so bad, I'll take them all, right here, right now." I would have poured pills into my mouth straight from the bottle and spit them in his face, just to scare the he** out of him. I didn't do or say either of these, but I really wanted to. Instead, I have been silent to him since last night.