Wow, I am really sorry your husband's being so unsupportive (that's the nicest thing I could think of). I'm not sure what to tell you other than we are here to listen. I hate feeling dependent on anyone and I am completely dependent on my husband. I know you must be feeling scared.

I have to say I have been kind of worried about you from the things you've been talking about lately. I hope you tell your t everything you've been thinking about. When do you see him again? And why don't you make a promise to us that you will take your meds? I know we aren't there to physically watch you, but maybe knowing that there are some people concerned enough to care if you take them will help you to be more compliant. (I know taking meds is really hard, this is a huge, huge struggle I go through constantly.)