Quote:
Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions
Wow, Blue, thank you for your insight....It makes great sense. I didn't think of separating the two. The healthy distractions do help me feel empowered and are much needed...Perhaps the more of that I do, the more I will find ME and maybe the less miserable I will be.
But then more unhealthy distractions could be different....a way of dealing with the anger and pain....and I need to get a better handle on that before I do something I will regret. I have been feeling the urge to SI during these times as well...
I guess I am dealing with so much rage and anger and need to find better ways of expressing it. I know that means working through the underlying issues in T....but I am too afraid to open up. UGH!!!!
|
MUE- I want to post more but I am SOOOO tired. I have to say before my head hits the pillow that I could have written this post. I can look for unhealthy distractions and drama when I feel "good enough" to let out the rage, anger, frustration etc.
And then there are the healthy distractions- talking with friends, spending time with my kids etc. But I (we) can do both. Im not done with all of that rage and childhood issues and it can DEFINITELY turn into SI feelings and weird things like wanting to hit my car with a truck in the opposite lane. Not that I would, but the thoughts can be really disturbing.
About working thru the underlying issues, I know you have said you are afraid to open up, but can you open the door to an underlying issue just a teeny, tiny bit? Mention some issue that might, maybe cause rage? It might be a small beginning.
