I know how you feel exactly and find mself saying I wish I could just erase that part of my brain with him in it so far it still hurts and its been almost 4 years since he walked out of our home and a year and a half since he told me he doesn't see us getting back together ever again ,a little more than a year since he took a girlfriend ,5 months ago she moved in with him and we are still married and he hasn't filed for or mentioned divorce ?????If you find anything that helps throw it my way ..