Stupidsminkle is right; it'd be hard to see a therapist without your family knowing about it. I'm in that same boat, because no one around me knows anything about this site or my depression. The major difference is my dad is completely opposite from yours. Not to rub this in your face, but my dad rarely ever even comes to the second level of our house, let alone in my room. He comes up here to take showers and rarely to talk to us about plans for the day or something like that -- that's it.

I definitely feel for you. I can't possibly imagine what you must be going through. This is part of why I get upset; I haven't gone through anything nearly as awful as what you're going through and I still sit on my fat @$$ all day and complain. I had minor SI issues in the past and now I'm trying to ignore my urges too. I guess mine just aren't as powerful as some because I can get past them pretty easily. I've wanted to cut recently but I feel so crappy afterward...so broken and unwell. I don't wanna be that girl anymore.

But enough about me! My advice to you is to look at it from the point of view of someone else. What would they think? SI is not okay. That's the only reason I don't do it anymore; if my mom were to find out again she'd go nuts. She's the reason I stopped; she wasn't angry, she was sad for me. I broke her heart and I couldn't stand to do that. I hope you come out of the darkness quickly; the light is waiting for you!