Well, my mom is kind of... she struggles with depression and she makes pretty bad relationship choices (like, she's had two husbands and both were abusive and all the guys that she has dated are either abusive or alcoholics or both) so, like... I grew up having to be on standby with a phone in my room listening to the fights and determining whether or not it was intense enough to call 911 and things like that. My mom is a good mom. And, you know... my two step fathers definitely had good qualities. The last one I liked quite a bit about 90% of the time... but he had anger issues and sometimes would get a little out of hand. I really just want everyone to be happy. And I feel like I should be able to do that. I'm in counseling and I'm starting to realize that this thinking is not healthy or even plausible: I CAN'T support everyone. You know? I have to support myself. But... old habits and all. I have been the support for my mom since I was 6 (I am now 21) so... I have a lot of unhealthy thinking patterns that I hae to break through.