I see what you mean, and I guess I can always email my counselor and ask if it'd be better to wait or not, but if I've gone about 3 years without telling my family already, I'm sure I can manage another month or so, you know?
The thing is--and this has just been on my mind since I relapsed--I know it's a problem, I mean, I recognize it as a problem, but it just--I don't know, it doesn't FEEL like it's a problem still. I know it is, but I don't KNOW, you know? Not fully and without a doubt... It's still not a problem TO ME, though I know it's not good and I can say that it is a problem... I'm not sure if I'm making sense or not... I know if I'm gonna keep coming in for counseling, I need to acknowledge this as a problem so I can start to get rid of it, and I know it is, but... I don't know. It still just feels like something I just do, though I can tell myself that it is a problem...Am I still in denial maybe? Maybe still not ready to give it up? Or does anyone else still feel like this? How do I fully accept it as a problem? If I keep telling myself enough, will I eventually believe it completely?
Which is another reason why it might be better to wait... If I wait another month, I may have fully accepted that this is a problem by then, and I will feel more ready to tell someone else...