Another wave hitting.... came across an item I really didn't need to be finding right now. was totally not safe for a moment. then roommate saw it and said "Oh i wondered where the _____ was. I guess that's it...". I didn't answer. I didn't need the visual reminder, nor the verbal reminder. And i sure didn't need my system to have the active memory of the dangerous item.
What I need to remember right now is that the med I am on has warnings about this. And to call immediately if it gets severe. If i had ins. and less fear about the process, i probably would go to the ER right now and explain that this med can have this effect. But what I also know is that there have been worse moments than this (on no meds) where things were a bit too close to dangerous - and we came thru it. I need to remember that I can come through this too, and keep talking myself thru this.
I can do this... i can do this... this is not a crisis... this is not a crisis.