((((Tumnus))))

The holidays are very difficult for me too. They have been for many years. For me, Thanksgiving went better this year (than it has for a LONG time) by admitting "yeah, holidays suck ~ but I'll just do the best I can" before the day even began.

I had decided that making it through the holidays without intense stress was worth going to my family party. I went for a few hours, and kept my presence very light. Then I went home, and I felt okay. My point is, don't push yourself hard to "do the right thing". I recommend that you do what you honestly feel that you can do, without causing more intense stress. If that means staying home alone; with your hubby in a hotel; at your friend's house; or at a movie theater; then that is what would be best for you.

Your husband plays a larger role in your life emotionally, than your friends, so I'd recommend trying hard to understand his perspective. Perhaps he feels really alone and just wants to be with you again, to reconnect?? You may both be fighting to feel "normal" again and need that intimacy and honesty to regain individual and couple strength.

Just my opinion. Very best wishes to you!