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Originally Posted by skeksi
This is exactly what will happen, I think. When we're not used to feeling anger and we let it in a crack in the door, it has a tendency to rip the door from the hinges at first! But in time you will be able to open and shut the door when you want.
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This is really good. Thank you for saying this. It is so true for me. I get triggered and the door flies off the hinges. We tallked a lot aobut this in my session today.
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For me, I find the anger often is rooted in the irritability aspect of my ptsd. A lot of times I'll be fine until at some point in the day I get triggered, and then I am more raw--sensitive and irritable. If a couple of more things pile onto me--BAM, I am furious. It feels less out of control than it once was, though.
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yup. Thats what happens. There is just so many triggers I can take in a day and so much energy I can use trying to stay an adult. Though I have to say, with practice, it does take less energy than it used to.
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You are so clearly a caring mom, please know that this will even out. Also that what feels like monstrous scary anger may not be so to people outside of us. I find when I feel like I roared like a lion, other people think I was a meowing cat. Small comfort, for how awful it feels!
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Thanks, Spotted. I focused so much on in my session today about the differences between my mother using her passive agression against me and my children with attention getting behaviors. It FEELS similar and triggers me, but it is NOT the same. Like saying no to a bath and looking for my reaction. How to give more positive attention and one on one time to my 5 yo even if she wants to play Wii with my 9 yo son. She needs me instead wii! And feels it at bedtime.
And its so funny, my kids and H Do experience my anger differently than I do. I dont think I am meowing....but hmmmm.....