Dream- Thanks for saying that about the feelings eventually coming to the surface. I feel them there, but I dont feel them. I just "feel" them there. If that makes any sense. Maybe it was my cold and I thought if I cried, I really wont be able to breathe. It sounds funny, but maybe.

I am afraid of the sad and hurt feelings when it comes to my mother. That I'll be flooded and wont be able to breathe from sadness or stop crying.

When I read what you wrote about your mother telling stories about your relatives, my mother did exactly that, too. She told stories aobut everyone to inflate herself, but especially about relatives she thought Id like. She always had something negative to say about someone else.

Im thinking about beginning the letter to my mother tonight. If I feel that I am not doing well with the feelings that come up, I'll stop.

Velcro- I can SO understand this. Would that be considered a trigger? And when you saw the mother playing with her child's hair? Things like that trigger intense feelings of sadness for me, even if I do not connect it with my mother, I know it is the reason. It makes me want to suddenly cry, too. I get paralysed for a minute. And I dont think for a second it is silly. Your Poppa sounds like he was a nice part of your life. In today's session we were talking about my grandmother and the positive influence she had on me. Hugs to you, Velcro dear