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Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
How do you feel now? Now that you have told her about your feelings about needing mothering and she completely accepted you, told you that she'd be there and she is certianly is NOT disgusted!
I cant think of anything more healing and soothing. You are being re-mothered. And you are ALLOWING yourself to be. That is really big, Dream. I know what it is like to carry those feelings around for an entire lifetime. She will teach you how to mother yourself. Can you feel that already?  |
I'm feeling strangely unsettled, like waiting for the sky to fall or something, like it's too good to be true that T could be that accepting. And as I journaled after my session, I started to cry, and I wrote down the questions, "WHY does T want to take care of me? WHY is she so accepting of these feelings I have?" I still can't see why she would want that. I do realize that's the shame talking, but it's still very much present.
I thought it would feel healing and soothing, but it's not, and I don't understand why the shame is so loud right now.
I think I want to take my time with this part of the journey before I have to start mothering myself - a friend told me not to rush it, that I deserve to be mothered by someone else for awhile. And since T is okay with doing that, I'm going to let her do it.
