Hi again,

Well, I hope I'm not posting too many questions here. I feel so relieved to be able to vent in a safe place...

Anyway, since my depression hit, I'm really struggling to at work. The truth is the sadness makes me want to crawl in a hole. My emotions run the gamet from teary to numb to unfocused to angry. So having to interact with people all day can be an enormous challenge.

A couple of my coworkers seem to have noticed this personality change in me. And seem to take it personally. My game face was always to be smiley/approachable. Now I'm much more reserved. I'm still professional and polite but just don't have it in me to listen to what someone did during the weekend. I just don't care and you are the only one I can say that too.

Here's what I'm getting to.

For the coworkers who have noticed, they are now being reserved back at me. I can't blame them. But I do find it puzzling and yet another annoyance to deal with. I am someone who, roles reversed, would ask the person if everything is okay. To be "punished" with the silent treatment is just....I don't know, it's just weird to me.

I can't do anything but just exist right now. And bantering happily with people is not something I can do.

My plan is just to take it day by day.
Keep being professional/polite/friendly as I can be and just ignore any cold shoulders.

But if you can relate or have any advice, I would really appreciate it. Thanks!
Patty