I lost my best friend. She passed away three months ago.She was only 38, 4 beautifull children. 5, 7, 14, 16. She suffered cancer. She was the type of person you could tell anything,and not judge you on anything. I feel so lost without her.Everytime I see her children,especialy the younger ones,I nearly break down. Her husband is a lovely man,and is struggling. He says he is fine I know he is not. I have never had a friend as close,and so much like myself in many ways. Our lives were so much alike. She would know when I was feeling down,the phone would ring and it would be her, saying whats wrong. I also would ring just at the right time,when she needed me. We shared our secrets, clothes,baby sat for each other.Even councelled each others children when they were feeling down and thought that mum and dad did not care. You know how teenagers get. I only knew this friend for three years,but it was the best three years of my life with a friend. I'm still waiting for the phone to ring. Her husband gave me her dog and most of her clothes and shoes, he knew how we shared everything, sometimes I think its a bit silly we were like two teenages.Her dog is a little maltese, so cute. Im finding it realy hard getting over this. She told me before she died she was sorry. It breaks my heart everytime I think of that day, the last day I spent with her two days before she died,which was a friday. Fridays I play music and burn a candle to remember the good times. It does not seem to help I feel lost without her. I also feel so deeply for this family, they lost their grandfather only five weeks before,he was my friends dad.They both went so quick,she only found out she had the cancer in january, gone in may. Same with her dad ,4 weeks. Its been such a shock.There has been alot of deaths ive had to deal with in my family in the last 3 years, but this im not dealing with well.