Thankyou for your thoughts. I know she would not like me being like this and Im trying realy hard. Its not just loosing her, its also I feel so sad for the family and there is nothing I can do,but be there for them. I attended three funerals in 6 weeks. They were all close to me.Two boys were killed in a house fire, I had known them for 5 years, then my friends dad, then my friend. They say if you hear of one you hear of three. Its scarey. How is someone to cope when they suffer depression on other issues. Im so cranky with the world.