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as the title says: feeling nothing. at least not anything good. i feel like all I've been doing is whining, so i quit talking. what do you do when it feels like your support system has disappeared. feels as tho i'm getting the "time's up, feel better" treatment. tired. as usual. flat. as usual. haven't been able to get into therapist almost 3 weeks. need to be there. need to be somewhere safe. alone is not it. alone is not good. alone is not safe. i actually want to go back to the crisis center. get cornered 3-4 times a day to "chat". although, last time there abbie did threaten to take me to the hospital psych ward. 2 days worth of major melt downs and i disappeared into myself. took a long time to surface. scared the **** out of the staff. i do not know if i want to live or die, all i know is i can't do this anymore. the meds may be keeping me from bottoming out, but not by much. please help.
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