Hi kindergirl,
Thanks for replying; I appreciate it.
I'm very frustrated because I have had about 9 years of therapy!! I uncovered a whole lot of memories of the childhood abuse, but my therapist just didn't know that I have DID. She knew I had dissociation, but at the time I had been in denial of the alters I'd created as a child and the lost time. It wasn't the therapists fault, I think, that she didn't know because I guess I was too much in denial of it for it to show? Although the therapist knew about the ritual and cult stuff so I'm now thinking maybe she should have suspected DID?

Ok here's my frustration; I'd thought I'd come so far in therapy; I thought I'd uncovered about 80% of what I'd gone through, but now I realize I do have alters and parts and they've probably only shared, in form of memories, and not so much feelings, only about 40 or 50% if I'm lucky!!

So now I realize I need therapy for DID, BUT I am not so trusting because of the cult stuff and so it's really going to be hard to find someone who i can trust, number one, and number two I'm super strapped for money and don't have health insurance so I may not be able to afford therapy.

On the positive side though, I'm very good at the self-help stuff cause I majored in psychology and even have lots of grad school psychology.

I'd prefer a therapist, but don't think I can afford or trust one. Some of them are not sincere.

Tayra



[quote=kindergirl;1227708]Hi Tayra

I think DID comes in many forms. Like you I have memories of losing time in childhood. I have had 4 years of therapy, and it is only through this that I have discovered my various parts.