I'm right there with ya, susierose! I feel like I am still a thin early 20-something, not an overweight 30-something. I feel like that's my true self. And that's why I freaked out when T and I were talking about weight once, and she made a comment about a former patient of hers being "even fatter than you" - oh, I was soooooooo hurt! Of course, we talked about it for a few sessions after that - I had to make T understand that even if she didn't mean to call me 'fat', she still associated the word with me, which hurt me so much because I thought she'd seen my true self, and MY TRUE SELF IS NOT FAT! Plus, I just assumed that T thought of me as I did - all that self-hate, every negative connotation that exists in my head related to the word "fat".

So yes, I do feel that way - you are not alone! It's great that you could open up about that in group to T!!!