Yeah, I know that he reacted badly and out of proportion to the situation. And I know that I have a tendency to blame myself for things that probably are not my fault. My counselor and I talked this whole situation out after I cut (obviously) and he brought up a lot of the same points. You know, about how I cannot blame myself for his reaction to things. That is not in my control and if he reacts badly it's not my job to fix that. Like I said, I'm basically working on altering the way I have viewed the people in my life and the way that I have interacted with them for the last 15 years. It's going to be a long, rough road. lol. But I hear that the hike is worth it.