Feeling really annoyed and down. Really annoyed because I have a few really big papers to write, and I just can't seem to do them. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!? Ugh, I'm so frustrated. I've wasted more than half of the day, not doing this paper that is due today! I really need to get on this.

And randomly, I'm starting to wonder if I am like my grandma, who was depressed and anxious a lot and committed suicide 2 years ago. I don't want to live my whole life feeling this way, and I have no idea how to get back to facing life without fear...embracing the world.

Feeling utterly hopeless and worthless right now, and not too happy about it either.

Don't even want to go to my therapy session tomorrow.