It does effect my life everyday, since i could remember. So just became accustomed to it being normal part of my life. I tried going to therapist before each experience was never good... i had a guy who unless i was 2 inches from his face couldnt hear wtf he was saying and wanted to shake the **** out of him, had another lady who was about 24 if that who would take cell phone calls during sessions and cut me off... pretty unbelievable really and i had another guy who talked to me more about his problems then listening to mine, each prescribing me whatever i needed / wanted so i gave up hope beause i didnt want to become a drug user, or maybe im to worried about taking the pills and becoming a drug user... everything in my life is pretty much a catch 22 I can worry about something which is good because i think things through, but it also shoots me in the foot as well... I would be thrilled to just go to a Therapist and him / her just listen and be like ok this is what u have this is how u should try and change it to better urself, but just feel like i was wasting time.

But thanks listening and actually giving me probably the best advice yet. Greatly appreciated.