I'm pretty new here as well. I remember that, as my appointment date for the pdoc got closer, the more I had the urge to cancel it. It was like mentally I was sticking my fingers in my ears and chanting, "LA LA LA I Can't Hear YOU!!!" I think that feeling of being outside of things is part protection and part a coping tool. I know I've definitely felt like that.

I hope you can find part of what you need here. Everyone has been really supportive so far.