[sigh] Lady, I have over 15 cuts on me, and the last four days other than when I am at work, I am drinking......alot. There, I said it. But hey, I'm still around - a little worse for wear and lately intoxicated, but breathing.

I think the cuts are infected......the skin is hot and there are red streaks on my thighs. I keep not letting them heal - I take the knife and go at the scabs.

I am doing well at work - my DM came in today and congratulated me on my test results and my performance - the outside me is flourishing.

The cuts on my arm have left scars I believe. Thankfully no one has really mentioned them and I ran out of long sleeve shirts to wear.

I talk wayyyyyyy too much when drinking. I want to call my T, but he's sick. I really, truly need him. But it goes away after awhile when I get sleepy from drinking. I was actually almost late a couple of times........my meds make me more sleepy with the alcohol.

Anyway.......I am fine, really. My life always has issues, because it is my fault and I don't change things. So, no need to fret. xoxoxoxox