thanks for the kind words, again anyone who just listens greatly appreciated to me. Like i said im really confused because I had these feelings (worries) my whole life as long as i could remember I would remember going to like a baseball game, or roadtrip and getting psychically sick throwing up the whole way there and my nerves were just shot. I also remember a time when i was about 11 years old, my mom wanted to take me with my friend and his mother and brothers to see a movie and i just thought the world was gonna like end freaked out for no reason at all threw up nerves were shot, ended up being dragged there and the movie ended up being one of my favorite movies of all time... I dont know what to make of these occurances but there are 100's more and its sad and i told therapist these stories before but to no avail they had no input on them.