Thanks for the suggestions. I work a minimum of 52 hours a week plus have two active teen age daughters, I unfortunately do not have time to volunteer unless I do it at midnight, the same with exercising. Yesterday and today I took off work because I have PTO time I have to use or lose and I just needed a break. Breaks are bad because they let you sit and think.

I do realize that self-depreciating talk does no good. Realizing it and being able to stop it are different things, at least for me. I was severely struggling yesterday and am not doing a whole heck of a lot better today. Stupid is how I feel at the moment.