I dont know what to do. Had last session with T last week as I am supposed to be on a break until the new year. This means I wont see him for another 3 weeks (4 weeks in total). He is working over xmas/ny. I thought I would be ok, but Im not. I really need to hear Ts voice, to know that I CAN get through this. I feel so overwhelmed with sadness, lonliness and fear. I dont know how to get myself out of this, and the thought of not seeing him for 3 weeks scares me to death. I cant deal with it. I honestly dont know how I am going to get through this.

I know T would probably be ok with me callling him- I email him sometimes when I cant cope- but I dont know what I would say to him. But I dont know what else to do. Honestly, I feel like I am losing my mind and cant get out of this black, never ending hole. I cant see a way out. I need T. I cant see a way of making it another 3 weeks til I see him again.

We did make a list earlier in the year of "distractions" to take away from my emotions, but none of it is working. Anyone got any advice at all please?