Berries, you are not alone at all. I once had boyfriends, friends, a career, a life. That all seems like it happened to another person now. I am completely alone, my life is completely pointless, I am pointless. I have no friends, a job that I hate, I have no ambition, no dreams, no hope. I wonder what I doing here. So I hear you, and feel for you. You are not alone.