Thank you Babysteps, I am not sad 24 7, But I am sad alot, other times I think Im numb, I am doing stuff to try and distract myself, Your idea to go out and see nature stuff is a good one, Sometimes I like to go to the Park, so maybe I will do that this wknd, Dogwood, I dont have a pdoc or take meds. Im here for someone else, Worried about someone else. I cant see a thearpist, complicated, thank you for the support though! Means alot! Thanks Pomegranite, thats true, I am trying distraction methods, it just gets hard at times, but I Try, On losing the relationship, i know its not gone for good , but now its hard, I Dont want him to pulll away more, it hurts so so bad.